January 2010
I'm not supposed to be here.
It seems I’m always the one at fault for something. Maybe I’m not supposed to even be here. A road trip somewhere far, far away sounds like a good plan. Get some money together, pack, and just go. Get a new phone number and cut myself off from tumblr and fb so nobody could contact me. That way I can’t cause anymore of this random drama that always seems to happen. Always. Yeah....
I don't want snoopy.
I don’t want to pick what you would expect me to pick. I don’t want to be who you expect me to be. If I imagine myself in anybody elses shoes, you’d say somethin completely different. Every word I spoke, every tease I’d poke, an every action I made would come off as something completely different. Repulsive even. But when anyone else does or says anything, you don’t...
I need
something different in my life
Everything is changing.
Rather, everything for me. Not necessarily things around me, but my own personal views on everything. Watching fight club at the moment. Realizations.
I had lobster today, didn’t really enjoy it. Milk tasted like water. Everything is bland. Color? Nah. Everything is b&w. Food? Tasteless. Happiness? Nt. More like melancholy. Someone seems to think I’m missing that something to give...
Can't fucking sleep
I keep thinking about everything in my life. Most of my life is built on depression and regret. I regret so many things. I keep playing a scene over again in my head where I just go home and tell my parents every secret in my life that I have kept from them followed with two long gashes down my arm with a razorblade. I’m at a point where there’s a 40 fucking percent chance that I will...
3:20
Goodfuckingnight.
Sickness
GO AWAY!
fts.
Nothing will ever fucking happen and I need a big fucking slap of reality.
xkcd
A different view of dreaming:
to go comatose for a view hours,
hallucinate vividly,
then maybe suffer amnesia about the entire experience.
I have to go to the gym, but I want to listen to sad love songs.
I struggle sometimes.
attn tumblr creepers:
kthysvrsn:
Please do not reblog or copy&paste my posts please. I mean, if the post applies to your situation or if there’s something about it you like, feel free. On the other hand, if it has absolutely nothing at all to do with you nor with your life, then please do not reblog/copy&paste. Actually, don’t even copy&paste because that’s taking credit for my words which I thought of,...
